I want to remain as a nice story!

Someone around me has broken all ties..today he dint feel like waking up early and offer a prayer.Like everyday,he dint want to bask in the sun..and feel warm.He is not demanding anything, no attention,nothing.The sweet banter of his children doesnt please him anymore.He doesnt seem to be waiting to chat with his busy son.He is not following any routine today..he is quite and keeping all his needs to himself.

There are so many near & dear ones who have come to meet him..but he is keeping to himself..infact everybody is talking about him.I learnt about his fondness for his sons he loves them and misses them when they are absent.I hear & remember so many such stories about him.The youngest of the family ,a 2 year old also is not allowing any one to sit on a chair, and keeping it available for him.But nothing seems to matter to him anymore..Because he is no more..

So when I am gone too..all my needs will go with me and what will remain of me will be stories..

When I am gone , I want to remain as a nice story..

What women want..?

I am amazed to see working women slogging it between home and work.They feel responsible for their children ,home and husband and also their work.They sleep less to make both ends meet.I can understand women working like this ,who are hard pressed for money and by working, add an extra something to their family income. But what amazes me most is women who work for peanuts or belong to well to do families?

What do they get from working so hard? Here the desire to do somthing on their own seems to be their calling or is it an indirect way to get a personal space among all the to do list of things? May be it is the sense of achievement to earn money or it could be a getaway from the monotony of life or escaping from something she can't address? Or is it the desire to do something independent of the family,or is it to prove something to someone?Is it the importance given to people who work an earn(predominantly men) that it becomes such a desirable act?

Is it the image or the lack of it for non-working women that one is forced to choose a different course and somehow fall out of the category?

Whatever it is ,it has to be big enough since she is willing to negotiate it with the FAMILY TIME, or the comfort of sleeping more ,or outsourcing her basic home work.

Too many questions..!

To Myself

You are scared, apprehensive and doubtful of how will it work.Not because you think you can't but because you know your unlimited potential and have never believed that before.
You have never appreciated yourself moreover stopped and undermined those who did.
Your loved ones believe that you can do more and better but you never wanted to believe them.

Yes! It did occour to you quite many times that you don't belong here and why they repeated that you deserve so much better and grander.
This is the time to prove to yourself that you can be an achiever, a success!
Your dreams can come true and not die with you or be passed on to posterity as a burden.
Bear yourself , accept yourself ,admire yourself!Give yourself a chance.
Remember you want everyone to WOW at you and believe that you can make it possible.
It darn well be possible!

Mesmerising Dharamshala..!

I live in the valley of Dauladhars ranges, at upper dharamshala. This afternoon I have witnessed something ,that I had never before.

I saw the clouds gliding into my garden and everything there was , soon became misty.The two majestic pine tress braving the Hamoc soon faded away.I decided to walk in the garden and soon could feel the damp clouds on my cheeks and nose. My wind chimes were chanting a spell and the pine trees were swaying to her tune.No birds chirping ,no distant noise ,could'nt even hear a ripple. Just the Chimes.
I was in fairy land , just mesmerised!

Do I ?

Wanted to blog for a very long time but i got into the rat race. Whenever I was brimming with thoughts I wanted to write them down just like Boji (My Grand dad).

My life has been a roller coaster and whenever their is a break ..I am dreaming..
Do I write about the things I love the most or mention what makes me cry and yearn for? Do I write about my never ending pursuit to "stand out" or do I write how I confirm
to the socially accepted norms? Do I write about my dilemma every hour or my untiring focus on my work?
Do I share my adventures or recount my misfortunes. Do I describe how special I am or do confess my mediocrity? Do I impress you with my brilliance or gain sympathy on my plight..? Do I trust you with my honesty or give you the plastic smile?

I will try again ..!